My Celebrity Pain

Everyone has a celebrity that they look up to,
& My celebrity was u,
I tried my best to make u notice me,
I wrote u poetry,
Gave u free publicity,
& What did u go & do,
I still can't believe it's true,
The worse part is I looked up to u,
All I ever wanted was a simply reply,
Even if u just said hi,
Maybe answer a fanmail or 2,
Is that so hard to do,
Sum fans can't wait,
Don't tell me u have alot on your plate,
So plz answer them before it's too late,
Coz we're the reason behind your fame,
Just imagine no 1 knew your name,
You'd just be another player in the game,
Or no 1 bought your cd,
You'd be a nobody,
Just imagine no 1 watched your show,
Or bothered to turn on their radio,
Your fanbase wouldn't grow,
& Your boss would tell u to go,
& What would u being doing right now if it wasn't for the fortune & fame,
Just a normal person struggling in life's game,
Some would probably 6 feet underground,
From the violence & drugs going around,
Sometimes fame doesn't alwayz last long,
Always remember where u came from,
Don't forget about the people who cried with u,
When people in the industry hurt u,
The emotions u went thru,
They feel it too,
Especially the kids who wanna be just like u,
Try to help them where u can,
Coz sumtimes they might not understand,
& U might lose that fan,
Sumtimes u might wonder why our kids stop believing,
Maybe u should answer some of your fanmail you're receiving,
I know sometimes it's alot to get thru,
But how hard can it be to answer 1 or 2,
Remember they're the reason everyone knows u,
So if you're famous in whatever industry,
& U consider yourself to be a celebrity,
Then I urge u to hear my plea,
Alwayz thank your fans when u can,
If u see them take their hand,
Coz it's sad when u lose a fan,
Just ask Eminem who's "Stan..."

I'm doing just fine

The hardest thing was letting u go,
Coz I still love u so,
I really thought our love could grow,
I guess I was wrong,
That's why I'm singing this song,
"I'm doing just fine,"
I'm glad I left u behind,
Coz I'm better than I've ever been,
I'm living out my dream,
All this time I thought u cared,
Do u even remember the moments we shared,
U know what forget I said,
I don't want u messing with my head,
I've cried enough over u,
So keep doing what u do,
Coz u & I are thru,
I don't ever wanna see your face,
So plz give me my space,
ps. I know I've said this before,
But this time I'm sure,
Besides I saw u already replaced me with somebody new,
So everything of the best to u 2,
I've got my pride & honour,
In the words of Madonna,
Coz "She's not me,
& She never will be..."

My Celebrity's Poem

A celebrity's just an ordinary person like u & me,
Except they're well-known becoz of their industry,
They try so hard to stay in the game,
U think becoz everyone knows their name,
They won't get the blame,
Celebs also go through heart-ache & pain,
Some just hide it so well,
That u won't be able to tell,
Like I said they're just like u & me,
Except with more money,
But they also have problems in their family,
It's just that they don't want people to see,
But when the fans do,
Then rumours spread which sometimes aint true,
So take it from me,
If you're a fan of a certain celebrity,
Even if they get publicity,
Be it good or bad,
Alwayz remember them for the good times they had,
Coz we all make mistakes,
But when celebs do they raise the steaks,
They also cry at night,
Some also end up holding their pillows tight,
& Celebs aren't alwayz right,
So rather let them be,
Coz a friend once said to me,
"I might be a public figure but I'm NOT public property,"
Which really change my mind,
& To me that was a sign,
That celebs are sometimes used & abused,
& That's why some people think some of the celebs are confused,
But I've learnt everyone has issues,
& U should respect their views,
Coz u don't know their pressure unless u walked in their shoes,
So to Genevieve Howard who said that line,
I wanna thank u for changing my mind,
May your star continue to shine...

My Niece's Email

I read the saddest email today,
So sad that I didn't know what to say,
Everyone heard that the world would come to an end,
But we're all still here my friend,
But that hoax upset a member of my family,
A member that's very dear to me,
& She's only 9 yrs old,
Telling me about her life's story that still has to be told,
Like celebrating her crown birthday next year,
Or her sister's 1st birthday which is so near,
When I read it I felt a tear,
It actually made me think a bit more,
What I'm really on this earth for,
What GOD has instore,
& I realised that I've got so much still to do,
& Still wanna spend my time with u,
I can't believe what he said,
Maybe he's the 1 who should be dead,
2nd time he's said the same thing,
& What did it bring him,
Yes, everybody know's his name,
But he shouldn't consider it to be fame,
Coz he sounds insane,
& He should just quit coz his bad at this prediction game,
Maybe he should work towards world peace,
I still can't believe he upset my niece,
So to my niece u know who u are,
It's a pity u live so far,
But I want u to know you're my shining star,
& That I love & miss u,
& The rest of my family in Australia too,
Even to my family & friendz in SA,
I'm glad u came my way,
& That's what I thank GOD for everyday...

The End of the World

They say the end of the world is near,
I don't believe everything I hear,
So plz don't live your last moments in fear,
Infact if this fact is true,
Then I wanna start off by apologizing to u,
I'm sorry for the things I said,
Sometimes my mouth's faster than my head,
To my family thanx for allowing me to hang around u,
I know it was sometimes hard to do,
But I want u to know I'll alwayz love u,
& I'm greatful to each member of my family,
Coz GOD has truly Blessed me,
Then to my friendz of which I have a few,
I'm so glad to have awesum friendz like u,
You're the people I'll never forget,
Then there's a few things I regret,
Like the love of my life I never met,
I'm sure I would've been a great wife,
If only you'd been apart of my life,
There's so many things I could've done,
I regret not meeting my unborn daughter or son,
I wish I could've had children even if it's only one,
But my ultimate regret,
Is that I never became famous yet,
All I wanted to be was a famous poet,
But my talent I've yet to show it,
I never got the chance to grow it,
As it might be the end of the world as we know it,
So if the world should end today,
Then I want u to know that I'm greatful u all came my way,
I wish we could all stay,
But this is how it's suppose to be,
Lotsa love from me...

My Hidden Pain

Everybody seems to know my name,
But do they know me beyond the fame,
Coz this is my life & not a game,
& Right now I'm going through so much pain,
But u really can't tell,
Becoz I hide it so well,
If really knew what's going on with me,
U'd give me sympathy,
But I don't want that from u,
I just want someone to talk to,
Someone to call my very own,
Someone who can't wait for me to come home,
But it looks like I'm destined to spend my life all alone,
Coz I had quite a few relationships in the past,
But they didn't last,
It's so hard for me to trust anyone,
Becoz of what my previous boyfriends have done,
Coz now I'm wondering if there's something wrong with me,
That I can't have my own family,
What did I do to deserve this pain?
Will I ever find true love again?

Happy Mother's Day from SA

I always knew I'd make it through,
Becoz I was raised by a great mom like u,
The only problem is that I miss the things we used to do,
I remember the things u used to say,
I miss giving u a hug & kiss everyday,
I know the reasons why u went away,
So I won't asking u to stay,
It's just that over time it gets hard for me to get by,
Yes I do cry,
Coz it's not easy living without your mother,
Especially when u have a mom who's like no other,
She's more precious than any stone,
Coz without my mom my house isn't a home,
I miss seeing u face to face,
I miss u invading my space,
Yes technology has improved over the years,
But the fact remains you're not here to wipe my tears,
I miss hanging out with u at the mall,
U know I get excited when I get your call,
Just hearing your voice on the other line,
Even if it is only for a short moment in time,
What I'm trying to say,
Is that you're special in everyway,
& That I wish I could spoil u today,
But I know it's not possible now,
& I know things will work out somehow,
Mom thanx for giving birth to me,
I hope you're proud of the woman I turned out to be,
I love & miss now & forever,
Virtual hugs & kisses until the day we can be together...